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Coming from someone who hasn’t experienced what it means to be married you will think am saying nonsense but trust me when I say shit is about to go down. It has been a rough week and everything seems to be falling apart between my wife and I. We got married last year as a matter of fact and everything has been going well and I was happy. Three months later we started quarreling over stupid stuffs she started withdrawing from me. My heart kicked override “maybe she’s tired of me”, “did I do something wrong?”. Oh! You know how ladies are with their nagging all the time “Babes did you see my makeup?”( eye rolling) what in the name of the gods do I do with that and it was really unnecessary. I kept putting up to her trying to explain to her some certain things but she would not listen. I started staying out late, drinking more and any day I didn’t come home heaven’s would come down to explain how Irresponsible of a Man I have become. Unknowingly, I started ignoring her, we became flat mat...

Age and laughter Happy birthday, you're not getting old Stay in the game, its not time to fold Countless experiences, I cant even recall I have known you for a long time Understanding we always find When you talk, you make me smile A special friend I will probably keep Only! if you buy me a cool Jeep Your laughing, its the purpose to see you blush A great Big Smile is Overdue. Hpmh! I nearly quit writing this verse Countless times I have written and torn But your smile is worth the time Your thoughts are clear in my mind Gratitude, no need to declare Funny jokes and laughs out loud We will always be your crowd Many friends you haven't seen How long has it really been? Lets dance through the night Until our spirits are truly Light. If you stumble count me there We get along like bread and honey A friendship worth just to convey a message HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER CARE. 

ANGER being the keyword Annoyed is an understatement How can one be filled with so much rage? When you are lonely, sad and no form of joy You seem happy but sadness eats you up badly But there is this one thing you find solace in And suddenly its taken away from you Bury yourself in books and your in another world Where you can feel loved, happy and fufilled all at once I believe that things will get better and till then we wait Knowing that it wont last forever but even that sounds too far. SOMETIMES you want someone to listen and understand What's worst? no one wants to listen, no one understands How can you understand when you didn't listen. Impossible! When writing doesn't help, you have to cry to relieve your anger And I have learnt crying doesn't make you weak, it makes stronger It relieves pain and anger but it doesn't take it away- Pain relieve Am used to taking the blames its not like anyone really likes me They pretend they like me and I do the same no one...

Hello guys ! I Will Be Sharing A Secret With You . So I will love you to come along  Have you ever wondered why the 𝙨𝙤𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡 𝙢𝙚𝙙𝙞𝙖 𝙨𝙥𝙖𝙘𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨 𝙨𝙤 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩.? Have you notice, that on Facebook, everyone is flexing and enjoying? Or have you discovered that on Instagram, everyone is beautiful, without spots Everyone has the best of shape On WhatsApp, everyone is laughing, at one funny video or the other On social media, every thing is just perfect, smiling faces, shinny clothes  and shoes, cute pictures Wonderful success stories and so on And that's what we see everyday. But let me ask you, is this how life really is? 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙙 𝙨𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚. Where are the struggles, the pain, the disappointments, Where are all the unhappy moments and failures The sleepless nights, the stress in personal development. WHERE DID THEY ALL GO TO? I don't know whether you have taught of this before. This is to tell you that social media has a ...

ALL my life I caved being loved by the right people. My mom was taken away from us while we were still growing  and well, my position in the Family didn't help it either. Yes, you guessed right Am the Last born. I grew up lacking all the Love my mother would’ve offered and it affected me badly  I took every little show of affection to heart and turned it love and that was where my problems started. In every stage I advance in life I felt this dark feeling clouding my senses and mindset. The outcome? I became depressed and whenever I met someone new it feels as though am normal again.  I felt what my heart has been seeking out for was Love which is not all a lie. But I was depressed and the only way I could express myself was through writing. Every one around me faked love and care. So I gave up and my problems started swallowing me up I became so thin that people thought I was sick. I usually read novels and it seems to keep the demons at bay but anytime I took a break it...

When you are gone They will read and say she tried to tell us It will be late, you’re not there to receive their care They don’t know the impact of their actions on you To them it’s protection but it’s exploiting your mindset. When you are gone They will blame you for lack of communication  But you are not there to be scolded as always You will be free from them and it will be their loss Those who felt they knew you will wish they listened to you. When you are gone They will say “Everyone has their own way of escape” Recalling events and your reactions to some things But even that won’t be enough to answer their questions  It’ll spike their interest to know more, you’re not there to answer. When you are gone  They will remember you and miss you, wish you were there  And all the happy memories you created with them They will cry the way you did cry many times for them too But then you will be forgotten when you are gone a story to tell someday .

Those days we didn’t even say HELLO  Moments we wished we had each other’s back Times that we were alone thinking of each other  Hours wasted wishing we can get back together  Not even thinking of the future you lost the TRUST Letting go of something that kept our vibes Alive Remembering how it grew and now how it ended Don’t you think something is still missing between us? The rumor is gone and now you want me back  You always needed me to fix your mistakes It’s not like I have a choice you can’t be blamed  I was crucified for sins we both committed together  And every time I fell for it you broke something in me Thinking, where did you get this nerve? I was broken Those times I spent hating you, I was all missing you  Those days I snubbed you, I was afraid of losing you.

I met Him in my SS2 Second term at first it was all mutual, it's so hard to over look someone so caring and looked so perfect.  It happened two months after and like that we became best of friends. Well its true all you hear about best friends especially between boy and girl. So you understand the situation now.. You are wondering what happened? we fell in Love. No! Let me rephrase that I Fell in love with Him. Worst part? He didn't feel exactly like I did, I loved him too much that I felt like a burden but it was too late. Have you ever felt like a burden to someone? That’s the worst feeling anyone can have. He had girlfriend then, her name Jennifer we were close and I felt bad for betraying a friend. But I still couldn’t let go. Don't judge me if you were in my shoes you would understand. Someone who makes you feel special like you’ve never been in your life. To cut it short He Loved her. I wasn't Jealous or angry I actually Snatched someone's boyfriend all in the...

I have never felt so bad in my life, I have heard of people who fall in love and are enjoying every bit of it. Why then should mine be always different, why do I who is always have to be left heart broken , why do people have to play with my feeling. What evil on Earth did I do to trust people with my whole heartedly, what? Onyi tell me what wrong did I do? Sandra cried out her red eyes to me . Barely could I mutter a word, to Sandra because of how surprised I was.  That fair ,cubby, beautiful and charming Sandra , I knew is now slimer than i am, looking like a diseased. Her appearance was so clear that something has gone wrong. Even if you were the devil , you would have compassion on her. But the only thing I could say was " 𝙎𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙧𝙖 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙙? Hot tears rolled down her cheeks again, as she spoke in cold words. Onyi, Johnson and I became intimate ,  two years ago, he was one of the nicest persons I have ever met. He was that charming young gu...

  Pain is my greatest enemy  I have searched far and wide to find ways to kill it But eventually, I realized pain is not the enemy  It is a no nonsense, no bullshit honest friend  Pain is a signal for you to heal It is a sign that there is something wrong  And am not talking about the physical  It tells you if there is a relationship that needs attending to  It challenges your strength, your faith and your humility  But Painkillers? They only hide the pain But they don’t take it away  The best way to recover from pain is TO ENDURE IT. Simply put, there is no healing... if there is no   PAIN.  

   Seems the times gone by are more important  Looks like new days gone by are horrid Very hard to believe you were once a kid When you wish it was all a dream Though you wish you can change some things  Thinking of all those things you did wrong Wanting to believe it was you being ignorant  And wanting it to be a dream in a night  But if only wishes were horses beggars will ride Seems if you will be an adult in a few days Because you don’t seem to understand the fact  That time waits for no one Set your goals and buckle up your shoes You’re yet to face the brighter future  The world is unruly because it’s no Man’s business  You have yourself to blame if you don’t make it right  Even when you are fully grown now Rest can never be prescribed by the doctor  There are things which you must fight for in life And you can’t dodge it no matter how hard you try Sometimes I find it hard myself to believe  That one day when you think it’...

  These days I found out I became more sad than happy When smiling at little times but frowning more often  Actually am not concerned with things that surrounds me  Then I found myself caring less of my physical appearance Making up my mind to stand for myself there was a pull It felt as though I was drowning and couldn’t do anything  Everything was crashing and I hadn’t even started building  I felt trapped, void and useless like the things of this World  The more I struggle the more life leaves me and am weak The earlier you understand this the earlier you SAVE ME.

Love is beautiful thing as we all know, but mine was more than just beautiful. Three months after I met my LOML. Everything seemed to fall in to place. And it looks as though, the host of heaven has finally visited earth and their dwelling place was my life. That line of the scripture..there will be no more sorrows was made manifest in my life. He had these charming set of eyes, that I was always shy to behold,because they always made me loose focus of every other thing happening around me. His masculine figure, was one that made me so proud, whenever we walked together. And above all, he was very interesting, we could talk for hours without lacking words. And was always there to keep me company. Ever since we met, the word loneliness was deleted from my dictionary. Everything was going so well, and life was so good to be true. School became fun after we met in year four. He was always hanging around me, we went out together, we did assignments together, he buys things for me. And as l...

Now the gist is ruling and no one gives a DAMN Not that am affected I can't just stand the CROWD I know It's all my fault and I can't reverse the TIME If everyone support you I would always lead the LINE You don't need to be interested you're not AFFECTED I know you're not sorry besides am the one really  DREARY I'm to blame cause am Hung here because I gave that CHANCE But am not going in a race with you because I can't bet for a RIDE I tried what I could but I could not just STYMIE But looking at the situation to me it's OFF THE LINE So why should I feel guilty when am not  CONCERENED Am wondering why am writing cause am not the type you  LIKED.

  When you say someone is no longer attractive  Just because you no longer see the love you had Now you are wondering what happened to the Love Then you remember  you lost the most important thing The Trust you should continue to water was lost- Withered Just like you lost an important vine yard-Person The action you took without considering yourself But looking at old times you are regretting Though it has earned you Peace and Happiness It has also brought you to the level wanted never to let anyone play with your feelings anyhow But you've proved yourself worthy to the task This Love at first was all FADING But now no words to say than FADED.